Kiqqed iit with Gabby…
Chunto Mamma…
almost burnt missiion...
she got tatted…
(DANK) lol
II realized today, that ii like (BLANK) a lot more then ii thought ii did. his personality is bomb. His lips are bomb.and he makes me laugh..hes a cutiepie… but ii must learn to remind myself, that its just that. ii can tell right away if there is a potential future with someone from one conversation, and ii pretty much only talk to those ii c myself with. I rarely find someone, but when ii do, ii cant help but want that connection with them… im trying to figure out how to like someone for who they are, and enjoy there company, without being emotionally involved. I think that maybe I should break it down like “dude, I like you a lot and stuff, annd i enjoy spendin time with u, I juss like you as a person and your company”…and to me, when I meet someone who is kool or sumthin, I tend to put foorth a lot of attention into them on given days… LIKE PAULINA FOR EXAMPLE,OR PAUL… when me and Paulina got back into contact, like I pretty much try and spend as much available time with her as I can, because I learn new things from her, shes funn..like thers a hype to our frendship..lol bkus this is someone I don’t c everyday, who ive known all my life, but not known at all… and Paul, like when he came out here, and we were talking, I saw him everyday accept once the entire week he was out here. it was the HYPE...Is that wrong?... I mean, I think maybe the mistake I make is that, I spend my time braking my neck for others…people in general, and I think that people like people who are assholes, and men want women who seem unavailable… dus that make since?.. n e ways… ive decided that though this relationship thing is for me, the rest of the world isn’t ready for it, so maybe I shuld just let it go.. becus like everyone else seems to be saying, IM YOUNG…I hav my whole life to fall in love and be tied down…and where I am now, ive had so many failed relationships. so im pretty much done with tryna be wifed up. I can love harder then anyone I kno..but im tired of hurting just as hard… …I will love every wonderful dude I come across prolly to pieces becus its more of an appreciation type of deal….but i doubt ii can be "in love" for a whiiiiiiile...just kus i kno whut its like, and for me its like a drug or sumthing...i turn into someone else... so im off love for now...but ii can get down with some infatuation, maybe a little lust within reason..
SlowPoke'.