ii tend to hold them to a certain standard. high expectations usually. but once someone distorts that image that ii have of them, and there "true's" come out.. ii tend to stray away from them. ego-centric people, have never gotten far with me. its okay to be focused on goals in life, but there is a certain way for everything to be handled.FOR XAMPLE, ii would never walk into something that ii myself wasnt ready for. and in recent occasions, i have found this a frequent problem..i have the chance to once again be with someone who at one point was all that really mattered to me, this person fits into me perfectly..but moms aint haviin it. and ii wanna be able to be with this person, when ii have full control of evrything..when ive reached full adult hood if u will.. ii want to go into it making sure theres no room for mistakes. because ii feel like THIS TIME, if it dusnt work out...there is no 3rd chance..there can only be one intermission....but with the other person..things are very convient,and of course, moms wuldnt hav it n e uther way...but iim juss so off him. what was broken can not be regained.. my respect level in a way has gone down, and thers more of a resentment...like a lost friendship, that is now trying to be forced backtogether. kisses dont mean n e thing to me anymore. neither do hugs, or deep stares. ive recently become a less forgiving person..and when i do forgive, its very hard to forget..because all ii see iis the bad that happend..
-SlowPoke'