being the type of person that has put their all into LOVE on not one but TWO diffrent occasions..i find that i am now, not so much against it. but just bored, and carry a "could care more" (becus i care so very little) atttitude. im sick of relationships, of guys in general. ii find that I'm pretty much a jerk now towards guys.maybe from resentment?....I've expeirenced something that was 3 states short of perfect. And i feel that once again, i was left with the short hand of the stick...So maybe in some way, i just don't wanna waste my time with anyone else..
in every relationship there's a downfall, maybe one, or many. So i feel that unless i find someone else who is basically me with a penis, then my journey of love is at its end for a long while. And seeing that i just broke up with my twin, wuld b saying that its time to focus on my career.
maybe its just that no one, and i mean NO ONE can handle me the way i want them too, so i get frustrated. I find that I'm more sarcastic, and have more of a Mouth,then ever before.. I know I'm a tripple threat, kus ma SQUAD helped raise me..lol.
but now Ive turned into the little kid you try to feed spoonfuls of medicine to, and i turn my head and shut my lips tight together. As appose to being the kid in the candy store not being able to decide, because there were just so many to choose from. (what a metaphor!)..
Its (LIKE) I'm sick, but i don't want to get better. I just want to be left alone. I want people to stop starring at me. My figure draws way to much attention. I never noticed how much people starring at me BOTHERED me...girls &&& guys. I don't (LIKE) going anywhere alone, because i feel i stand out even more. With other people i don't notice I'm being gawked at. I've never been one to crave attention i just always received it. But now, because of my indiferrent feelings about love, i feel i should just blend in. Its not (LIKE) I'm tryna
"catch a mann", as my Nana would say.
Of course reality comes slapping me in the face and i realize who i am.
TAYLOR Muther-(F-WORD) GRAY
the last of my kind bitch. And No I'm not dropping my last name when i get married. I'll be a thick figured career woman pushin a benz and the first in my crew to get divorced!.... im only better never bitter..
"ima move on cause im strong as ever without you,
i can do better, but i can never forget about u"
-Cassidy
in every relationship there's a downfall, maybe one, or many. So i feel that unless i find someone else who is basically me with a penis, then my journey of love is at its end for a long while. And seeing that i just broke up with my twin, wuld b saying that its time to focus on my career.
maybe its just that no one, and i mean NO ONE can handle me the way i want them too, so i get frustrated. I find that I'm more sarcastic, and have more of a Mouth,then ever before.. I know I'm a tripple threat, kus ma SQUAD helped raise me..lol.
but now Ive turned into the little kid you try to feed spoonfuls of medicine to, and i turn my head and shut my lips tight together. As appose to being the kid in the candy store not being able to decide, because there were just so many to choose from. (what a metaphor!)..
Its (LIKE) I'm sick, but i don't want to get better. I just want to be left alone. I want people to stop starring at me. My figure draws way to much attention. I never noticed how much people starring at me BOTHERED me...girls &&& guys. I don't (LIKE) going anywhere alone, because i feel i stand out even more. With other people i don't notice I'm being gawked at. I've never been one to crave attention i just always received it. But now, because of my indiferrent feelings about love, i feel i should just blend in. Its not (LIKE) I'm tryna
"catch a mann", as my Nana would say.
Of course reality comes slapping me in the face and i realize who i am.
TAYLOR Muther-(F-WORD) GRAY
the last of my kind bitch. And No I'm not dropping my last name when i get married. I'll be a thick figured career woman pushin a benz and the first in my crew to get divorced!.... im only better never bitter..
"ima move on cause im strong as ever without you,
i can do better, but i can never forget about u"
-Cassidy