WHY ii WACH TE VE

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SUPER SAUCED..

ii dunno whu time it is...but its dark outside.. i can barely see the letters on the keybored, kus they keep moving.. ii think that ii hav the lowest tolerance for alko-hol..either that, or i just had a straight white cup of vodka... im coherent , but super buzzed. everything is funny right now.. this is why i dont smoke, i kan only image the things id be going thru. im with the fam, which makes it all baddd. theyre outside hittin blunts, and me and ma kussin are drinkin vodka and cranberry.. i mean, damn, all i had was one cup...SO FAR...




slooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooowPOKE....

pain is beauty

ii didnt start getting cavities until after i got my braces... my mouth hurts, and its hard to talk,smile,laugh,or move the left side of my face in any way..they are gettin a kik out of this at my house....now i hav to go get surgery to get all my wisdom teeth pulled out...its hard tryna be cute, let me just say.. i look a hot mess, let me just say..id take a pikture to show u, but that embarresment wont be nessery..if u need a good laugh, call me on my house phone.. lol.

damn, i thought once i got ma braces off id b straight... of course not. its never that simple for me.

i was suppose to take my drivers test on thursday..went all the way there, and left my birth certificate at home...BURNT ASS MISSION.

-SlowPoke'

CONFRENTATION WITH tha FAKE FATHER FIGURE...

MOMS iiS ON MY SiiDE...


BOUT TYME....



-SlowPoke'

NOTE TO SELF:

Kiqqed iit with Gabby…

Chunto Mamma…

almost burnt missiion...

she got tatted…

(DANK) lol

II realized today, that ii like (BLANK) a lot more then ii thought ii did. his personality is bomb. His lips are bomb.and he makes me laugh..hes a cutiepie… but ii must learn to remind myself, that its just that. ii can tell right away if there is a potential future with someone from one conversation, and ii pretty much only talk to those ii c myself with. I rarely find someone, but when ii do, ii cant help but want that connection with them… im trying to figure out how to like someone for who they are, and enjoy there company, without being emotionally involved. I think that maybe I should break it down like “dude, I like you a lot and stuff, annd i enjoy spendin time with u, I juss like you as a person and your company”…and to me, when I meet someone who is kool or sumthin, I tend to put foorth a lot of attention into them on given days… LIKE PAULINA FOR EXAMPLE,OR PAUL… when me and Paulina got back into contact, like I pretty much try and spend as much available time with her as I can, because I learn new things from her, shes funn..like thers a hype to our frendship..lol bkus this is someone I don’t c everyday, who ive known all my life, but not known at all… and Paul, like when he came out here, and we were talking, I saw him everyday accept once the entire week he was out here. it was the HYPE...Is that wrong?... I mean, I think maybe the mistake I make is that, I spend my time braking my neck for others…people in general, and I think that people like people who are assholes, and men want women who seem unavailable… dus that make since?.. n e ways… ive decided that though this relationship thing is for me, the rest of the world isn’t ready for it, so maybe I shuld just let it go.. becus like everyone else seems to be saying, IM YOUNG…I hav my whole life to fall in love and be tied down…and where I am now, ive had so many failed relationships. so im pretty much done with tryna be wifed up. I can love harder then anyone I kno..but im tired of hurting just as hard… …I will love every wonderful dude I come across prolly to pieces becus its more of an appreciation type of deal….but i doubt ii can be "in love" for a whiiiiiiile...just kus i kno whut its like, and for me its like a drug or sumthing...i turn into someone else... so im off love for now...but ii can get down with some infatuation, maybe a little lust within reason..

SlowPoke'.

iiF u WANNA GET AWAY FROM THE WORLD...

THEN LISTEN TO MY SPEAKERS..

M.I.A.-Hit That

Uffie- Hot Chick

M.I.A.-Paper planes

Justice-D.A.N.C.E

G Love & the Special Sauce- Baby Got Sauce

G Love & The Special Sauce- Booty Call

Justice-Valentine

Millionares-Up In My Bubble

Millionares-I Like Money

Paulie, ii got madd respect for u and this musiq.and im gladd u got me into itt.. im not all hardcore with iit, but i can definetky get down with the down tempo stuff with the harder knockiin beats... maybe this is the same for most people who listen to this stuff, but ii just feel super zoned out from the rest of the world..its like my hiigh.since i dont smoke or nuthin..this stuff is like my dailey routine, its all ii been listenin to lately...its the only stuff i can listen to without feeling depressed..its leaves no room for unhappyness, it forces you to just BEE...and ii love that... nobody really knows whuts going on with me uther then u..which is kool.ii just feel like ii caan relate to u alot better then n e one else for sum reason.. (for evryone else reading this, kno that im okay)...n e ways..ii appeciate u, and ur musiq, and ur 6 minute sessions u be haviin with ur toothbrush.. lol

-SlowPoke

LiiViiNG FROM A DiiSTANCE

Due to previous engagements because of certain selfish fatt-ass blubbery lightning bolt havin groupy heferlambs…who will remain nameless…I am no longer..(spoken directly out the mouth of my authority)..i am no longer aloud to go out at NIGHT…MAYBE..when ii get my LISCENCE..MAYBE.. ii feel that this was no way my fault. If you are invited sumwhere, and your invitey is aware of ur curfew…why wuld u huff and puff and pout when its time to take my party poopin ass home?..ii will never invite sumone sumwhere,and not respect (whovers in charge)..their wishes..and I feel that I fully deserve to rant and rave on my blog about this..bekus that shyt is overly fuked upp..and im madd at myself , kus I kno..i shulda just took my ass home after the tats were done..i saw the deceitfulness in her eyes. Lol…I truly believe I wuld hav NO FRENDS, if I didn’t go to skool…. Seriously….4 more months and im respectfully, out this bitch..and I swear..i will never live iin LA again..im sorry..ive just had a bad life expierence since i been here…all 18 long years of my life. yall KNOW MOMS BE ON MY HEAD!!! SHE KNOWS WHEN MY SCALP IS DRY!!..ii cant stand her..and i kno that when ii hav kids....they will be aloud to have there frends come over..as long as they dont tear up my shyt. they can go almost wherever they want within reason..(no stripclubs or nnuthin)...ima treat my kids like KIDS..NOT CHILD DELINQUENTS..ugh...im so irratated..

..............................AS USUAL..AMMO,E.Gabbz,Jesse,..and whoever else..(pretend i smoke)..smoke 2 for me, eat plenty for the both of us, and ill see yall duriing school hours, BEFORE the street liights come one...

(ROLLING EYES).....SlowPoke'

Snaps Please...

Today ill fall in love

Hold hands and kiss lips

that taste

like cupcakes

im feelin lucky

the grass is greener

on this side

this time

ill love you into

tomarrow(s)

that’s plural and neverending

I gave up on love letters

And I don’t do love songs

Happiness is only a doormat

On my porch

Except on days like this

So today

I think ill fall in love

-SlowPoke'

WORD A MOUF’

YO LIFE – as if to say “your life”..ii kno..i don’t get it either..it sounds better when used sarcastically.

HORNY- another word for being thristy..”he is horny for my number”

For The Mo- like sayin your homo basically

Never Give-..as in never give up/ “sexual connotation”

“Foofer”- like a dumb person basically

Ive hurd even dumber things that people actually say in a conversation.and they say it to me..and ii hav truble keeping up..lmao…

MORE RANDOM SHYT!!

……………today ii wore my contacts for the first time since graduation..

ii ran into a pole,
tripped going up the stairs,
fell off a curb,
bumped into a trashcan,
and ran into a car with my self

….yup..its good to be back. lol

Today ii...

ii juss wanna be lovedd




that iis all for today



SlowPoke'

TO MY FAiiTHFULL READER!!!

PAULINA iiS AWESOME...


THIS IS THE START OF A BEaUTIFULL FRiENDSHIP!!

(NO HOMO)
i cant wait to hang out and go to a rave and listen to techno. lol
this blog is dedicated to u! i feel like u r my way to my father..get me/ like im not tryna use u..but ur in my life for a reason,and thats obviously one of them since all of ur family knew my dad pretty much..u couldn't have came into my life at a more perfect time. ur possitivty, makes me feel calm, and like i can handle whutevr im going thru. i wish i kuld b like u and not wanna ever get arried and hav kids,,and i wish i wanted to date white guys who didnt really like girls. lol...u r trully someone special.

P.S...tell ya FiineASSCOUSiiN ii SAID HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEY RASHAAAD BOO!!! lmao...

just kidding....kinda.



-SlowPoke'

BECAUse REAL FRENDS KNOW YOU BETTER THEN YOURSELF...

taybayb: I juss need ur lovely opinion..

Slim: I just think you fall into the same trap of being in love, you`re
just in love with being in love and when someone gives you that chance,
you take because you have that type of faith in people, you want to
believe that all people are just as willing s you, & it just happened
to happen that they guys you`ve picked aren`t so free willing to leap into
love.
Slim: And that`s okay, because it just shows you that maybe you hold
back, don`t love right away, & even if you do, let it out in spurts.
Slim: Let it out when the boy shows he deserves it.

"TREAT YOUR LOVE
LIKE YOU DO YOUR PUSSY"
-SLIM

Slim: Treat your lovelike you do your pussy.
Slim: the thing about you, which is NOT a
flaw is that you`re so young,
but you know what you want in a love life.
Slim: You`re rare.
Slim: Many people our age do not know if they
want a relationship, or
if they just want to run free, because
it`s like settle now, but we`re
so young, or take advantage of a young love.
Slim: You`re just not confused & everyone else is.
Slim: It`s not your fault that EVERYONE else is fucked up

-SlowPoke'

iiM BACK BiiTCHES!!!

ONLY ii.. would have to get my stomach pumped for swallowing tooth numbing pain re leaver... thats so dumb!! y wuld they hav u put stuff in ur mouth that u cant swallow.. just like toothpaste.. n e wayyyys... ii miissed my blog.. and my much needed ME TiiME has had some wonderful results...
WEAVES BUILD CONFIDENCE!!!...
ii think this year, im waaaaaay more self confident. and ii thiink bekus of my hair,)ii have some wiierd sexual presence..?..dus that make sense?(II WISH U KULD SEEE MY FACE!!...) like, im not sexy..but how ever u wuld define me...works for me..and only me ii believe. ii also fiind that my attraction to the opposite sex has increased in a large percentage. lol.. ii cant help but admire and appreciate a good looking guy..since i so very rarely see them!!! its nice to be able to flirt with no obligations..and to receive numbers, even tho i kno ii wont be dialing them..lol.
DUDES LOVE FAKE NAILS!!! I SWEEEEEEAR!! dont ask me why..but ii hav noticed that the first thing a dude pays attention to is my nails.. so wiierd..ii was complimented, and ii asked whut was it about..and i was told, that nails that r done make a girl look cleaner...lol. okaaaay..eeven tho ii kno sum kute nail haviin DOO DOO MAMAs!!....nails..just like socks..to me, makes me feel trapped. they r glued on, and i feel like my real nails are suffocating...im slowly trying to b lady like....but ii think ill save artificial nails for special occasions, like.... my wedding day..lol..so ill stick to my homemade polka dots from now on....

-SlowPoke