this spring break so far has been very...enlightening. ii have some new favorite people in my life, who have quietly taught me some things about myself..the world is full of sin && superficial-ness.. to be OLD in the world of youths eyes, I'm still filled with an innocence, a purity that i know is rare to see in most women of this millennium.so.. am ii a women yet?..bekus i dont look at sex as a feel good inspiration,and because i dont do drugs, not because im allergic,but because i dont like how it smells,tastes,or feels...is a women aloud to be a women w/o being able to walk in heels?..and w/o letting a man pay for her?..my self awarness is overlooked as being immature..yes im a big kid who wears converse and still watches cartoons...but i dont need to shake my ass and wear tight clothes in order to feel validated by anyone..let alone a man who cant listen to what im saying because his eyes and ears are focused on if my legs are going to speak to him. i assume things about people just like everyone else..but shuld i feel guilty for standing out in my baggy cargo shorts in a line full of well figured women who only care about the ways of the world...pain can bring a person a long way..my reason for not believing in real relationships, for not wanting to grow up..its easier to worry about school, and whats for dinner..instead of GERMS..like std's and who ELSE youve been kissing on. and its not even fear that makes me who i am..i just cant help wanting to live a longer life, and wanting to hav meaning for each intimate relationship im in...today i get what my name means now..its fits my identity completly. taylor made,..kinda like made to fit only one...i dont think n e one else could be as awesome as ii am while liiving in this world, with the beliefs that i strongly hold to heart.
-SlowPoke'