Guacamole does not cure confusion...or heart aches... neither does TUMS.
Puffs Tissue doesnt stop the tears from soaking my pillows, or fogging up my glasses..
im sitting here in the same place (metaphorically speaking).. wondering what im doing wrong.. waiting to hear the reasoning behind the faulty complaints, and the boundaries that have been given.. a piece of my soul crumbles in silence everytime im pushed away.love can just leave you feeling helpless sometimes... i went to the doctor and they told me my heart was too big for my body, which is what causes the seizures...(a metaphor in so many ways).. as i stood there listening to this lady who new nothing about me break down in tears about how sorry she was for me, and how young i was to have such heart problems... all i thought was..."thee irony"... its more then seizures and brain medication, i thought if anything, love would fix the problem..all problems.. you kno, " love conquers all" . like it puts you in an opptomistic outlook about life... if you have love.. u have everything?.. i thought... apparently god is laughing at me again.. my mind is my worst enemy as i think of the worst possible scenarios.. everything i culd have done right the first time.. how many obama documentary's id be willing to watch after all of this.. kinda like that prayer u pray to GOD and u say" if u get me outta this i swear i wont do it again"... i unno..life seems so stressful. money.health.&& love. this is why i dont hav sex, why i dont lie, why i dont do anything but write... evrything else is so complicated...maybe i shuld just stick to indie musiq && poetry... im tired of hearing how now is not a good time... always barely missing the perfect time to come into sumones life.. theres always growing up that needs to be done, sacrifices that have to made...all at once with no room for me.. ive grown use to not fitting into everyones scheduale... and in turn learned to compromise my feelings, and my schedule for uthers... im done with sorrys, and maybe laters.. im done with everything i thought i knew. im tired && i juss wanna go to sleep.. its the only time you cant feel anything...